back

backed in hk.

exams

exams are over.

i will do better the next time.

3

exam number 3.

finally something normal.

too bad it is only a general education, not a core subject.

at least i am feeling better now.

....

no mood to study.
no mood to play.
no mood to sleep.
no mood to wake up.
no mood to eat.

my sleep and meals are becoming irregular again. i already have no more strength to keep these habits going.
haven had a nightmares for a long time and i had two in the past two days.
both about 3006.

3006 has hit me harder than what i had expected.

the higher you climb, the harder the fall...

i have to stop thinking about it.

realization

just took a shower.

i realize i was too harsh on myself in the previous post.
if i fail i just have to face what i have to face.

this is life, not a playground.

if i pass, i will major in advance process control and i will score for that to make up for my mistakes in this subject.

if i pass....

wtf

second exam FUCKED UP.

nobody that i know could do the paper but it was definitely well within my capacity to pass this paper.

BUT SHIT HAPPENS.

i read the the first question (part a) and used up half of the booklet and wrote SHIT.

FUCK

Half way through the question i suspect that the question cannot be so difficult and check the question again to found out i wasted 45mins doing SHIT.

tHE PAPER WAS ALREADY TOUGH ENOUGH AND I HAVE TO MEET WITH SUCH SHIT.

FUCK.

FUCKING PIECE OF SHIT EYES.

this was my most confident subject and the subject that i was most proud of because i was doing so well.

now i dont even think i can pass the course even though i only need 20/100 to pass.

FUCKING SHIT.

havent felt like this for a long time already and i thought i would never have to be depress because of my results again as long as i study hard and change my old bad habits.

this is demoralizing.

i almost cried in the exam hall. serious.

this is the last time this is going to happen. i will read questions twice from today onwards.

paper 1

difficulty of first paper - 6/10

Although I have been scoring in elec1111, I know that it is my weakest subject. And I learnt that if you are not as smart as others, luck can help you to become as good as they are in terms of grades.

But I guess my luck for elec111 ran out before the exams.
The only tutorial question that i didnt attempt came out in the exams.

Almost went crazy when I saw that shit.

And I was so tired after the exams that I slept at 1030pm. Woke up at around half an hour later and realized that I havent had my dinner.

1 down 3 to go.