no mood to study.
no mood to play.
no mood to sleep.
no mood to wake up.
no mood to eat.
my sleep and meals are becoming irregular again. i already have no more strength to keep these habits going.
haven had a nightmares for a long time and i had two in the past two days.
both about 3006.
3006 has hit me harder than what i had expected.
the higher you climb, the harder the fall...
i have to stop thinking about it.
Saturday, November 7, 2009
Thursday, November 5, 2009
realization
just took a shower.
i realize i was too harsh on myself in the previous post.
if i fail i just have to face what i have to face.
this is life, not a playground.
if i pass, i will major in advance process control and i will score for that to make up for my mistakes in this subject.
if i pass....
i realize i was too harsh on myself in the previous post.
if i fail i just have to face what i have to face.
this is life, not a playground.
if i pass, i will major in advance process control and i will score for that to make up for my mistakes in this subject.
if i pass....
wtf
second exam FUCKED UP.
nobody that i know could do the paper but it was definitely well within my capacity to pass this paper.
BUT SHIT HAPPENS.
i read the the first question (part a) and used up half of the booklet and wrote SHIT.
FUCK
Half way through the question i suspect that the question cannot be so difficult and check the question again to found out i wasted 45mins doing SHIT.
tHE PAPER WAS ALREADY TOUGH ENOUGH AND I HAVE TO MEET WITH SUCH SHIT.
FUCK.
FUCKING PIECE OF SHIT EYES.
this was my most confident subject and the subject that i was most proud of because i was doing so well.
now i dont even think i can pass the course even though i only need 20/100 to pass.
FUCKING SHIT.
havent felt like this for a long time already and i thought i would never have to be depress because of my results again as long as i study hard and change my old bad habits.
this is demoralizing.
i almost cried in the exam hall. serious.
this is the last time this is going to happen. i will read questions twice from today onwards.
nobody that i know could do the paper but it was definitely well within my capacity to pass this paper.
BUT SHIT HAPPENS.
i read the the first question (part a) and used up half of the booklet and wrote SHIT.
FUCK
Half way through the question i suspect that the question cannot be so difficult and check the question again to found out i wasted 45mins doing SHIT.
tHE PAPER WAS ALREADY TOUGH ENOUGH AND I HAVE TO MEET WITH SUCH SHIT.
FUCK.
FUCKING PIECE OF SHIT EYES.
this was my most confident subject and the subject that i was most proud of because i was doing so well.
now i dont even think i can pass the course even though i only need 20/100 to pass.
FUCKING SHIT.
havent felt like this for a long time already and i thought i would never have to be depress because of my results again as long as i study hard and change my old bad habits.
this is demoralizing.
i almost cried in the exam hall. serious.
this is the last time this is going to happen. i will read questions twice from today onwards.
Tuesday, November 3, 2009
paper 1
difficulty of first paper - 6/10
Although I have been scoring in elec1111, I know that it is my weakest subject. And I learnt that if you are not as smart as others, luck can help you to become as good as they are in terms of grades.
But I guess my luck for elec111 ran out before the exams.
The only tutorial question that i didnt attempt came out in the exams.
Almost went crazy when I saw that shit.
And I was so tired after the exams that I slept at 1030pm. Woke up at around half an hour later and realized that I havent had my dinner.
1 down 3 to go.
Although I have been scoring in elec1111, I know that it is my weakest subject. And I learnt that if you are not as smart as others, luck can help you to become as good as they are in terms of grades.
But I guess my luck for elec111 ran out before the exams.
The only tutorial question that i didnt attempt came out in the exams.
Almost went crazy when I saw that shit.
And I was so tired after the exams that I slept at 1030pm. Woke up at around half an hour later and realized that I havent had my dinner.
1 down 3 to go.
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
Monday, October 5, 2009
LD
Had a long weekend due to the Labor Day.
I slept through almost the whole Saturday. Woke up only for breakfast, lunch and dinner. I was only truely awake at 9pm.
Put myself in semi-working state on sunday and did some work.
Slacked through the Labor Day Monday studying for a quiz.
Break is over.
Time to start my engines again.
6 more weeks and this semester will be over.
I slept through almost the whole Saturday. Woke up only for breakfast, lunch and dinner. I was only truely awake at 9pm.
Put myself in semi-working state on sunday and did some work.
Slacked through the Labor Day Monday studying for a quiz.
Break is over.
Time to start my engines again.
6 more weeks and this semester will be over.
Friday, October 2, 2009
End
Finally it is the end of the busiest week of the year. I slept an average of 4 hours for the past 9 days.
Extremely shag for such a weak and lazy person like me.
I did really badly for an assignment and a test, both are from the same subject. All the hardwork that I put in for this subject in the first half of the semester has gone to waste because it was only half of the week when I screwed both the test and assignment up.
I shall spend this Labor Day weekend to take a break and motivate myself again.
Extremely shag for such a weak and lazy person like me.
I did really badly for an assignment and a test, both are from the same subject. All the hardwork that I put in for this subject in the first half of the semester has gone to waste because it was only half of the week when I screwed both the test and assignment up.
I shall spend this Labor Day weekend to take a break and motivate myself again.
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