think

seriously, failing process economics got me thinking....

is it due to my playfulness or is it because i really have no talent in it?

im not perfect.

i know that is my weakness but i didnt put more effort into it. in fact, knowing that i suck at it, i avoided it.

20% gone down the freaking drain. im so fucked.

stress

the problem with being good is that there is pressure for you to live up to the expectations of others.

there is always a price to pay.

do you?

do you believe that god really has a plan for everyone?

people who know me know that i don believe a shit what christians have to say.

neither do i believe in the god crap.

but recently im beginning to see a pattern in my life.

a pattern that was always there but i failed to see.

god has always been giving me the same test in different phases of my life and i always failed it.

now its happening again.

this time i am prepared to take the test and pass it.

maybe god really has a plan for me.

stand up please

this is definitely the lowest point in these 2 years.

get back on track.

be better.

create a breakthrough.

achieve excellence.

mind starts to clear

really wonder why did i make such mistakes despite what i know.

i guess i am just too stubborn and naive.

I now finally understands the difference between theory and practice.

theory without practice is not learning at all.

ready

im ready for the next upgrade.

in 1 week i will be new again.

newer, better.

the year so far

in my mind, i had two targets to meet this year.

so far, i haven meet any.

in fact, i've just screwed both up.

looks like i got to turbo charge my engine so that i can accomplish these goals by the end of december.

this is so interesting and exciting.