damn it

went into a test unprepared today.

i guess the grief for this small failure will keep me motivated for the rest of this semester.

relieve

if today, you just acted childishly and hurt somebody, I urge you to say sorry to that person right away.

I've got the balls to do it and so do you.

and once again, the books proved to be correct again. i was an idiot for trying to go back to my childish self and demanded a win-lose situation.

tomorrow

i am so freaking childish.

i hope everything turns out fine tomorrow.

I will make it happen tomorrow.

stubborn

i dont care about what i've learned in books.


i still feel that you owe me an apology.

2 years

about 1 and a half year ago, i was reborn.

i was reborn into a better person. i saw a much disciplined self. i was happy with the change.

today, i have decided to "upgrade" my mindset again. i really hope i can make another breakthrough change that will make my life even happier and hopefully be able to make up for all the loss time in the past.

week 3

so far these 3 weeks has been easy on me.

but thats why i feel so slack and now i just cant stop sleeping. but all these slacking will end next week because all the assignments are coming.

and when the assignments come, the tests will follow.

its another 13 weeks of mind battle and discipline again.

my god

all the reputation i've been building for the past one year in sydney as a good boy has all gone down to the drain.

lost control of myself yesterday during the games night and all those jokes just kept pouring out.

good news: i am still good at my jokes
bad news: christians are offended by my jokes

whats new?

internet

internet was down for a week. bored to the max.

but when i finally had the internet back, i found that there was nothing to do online either.

throughout the history of mankind, saints and sages mentioned that feelings and emotions will cloud one's judgement.

i always thought that they were just foolish.

now i begin to wonder...

are they?