think

seriously, failing process economics got me thinking....

is it due to my playfulness or is it because i really have no talent in it?

im not perfect.

i know that is my weakness but i didnt put more effort into it. in fact, knowing that i suck at it, i avoided it.

20% gone down the freaking drain. im so fucked.

stress

the problem with being good is that there is pressure for you to live up to the expectations of others.

there is always a price to pay.

do you?

do you believe that god really has a plan for everyone?

people who know me know that i don believe a shit what christians have to say.

neither do i believe in the god crap.

but recently im beginning to see a pattern in my life.

a pattern that was always there but i failed to see.

god has always been giving me the same test in different phases of my life and i always failed it.

now its happening again.

this time i am prepared to take the test and pass it.

maybe god really has a plan for me.

stand up please

this is definitely the lowest point in these 2 years.

get back on track.

be better.

create a breakthrough.

achieve excellence.

mind starts to clear

really wonder why did i make such mistakes despite what i know.

i guess i am just too stubborn and naive.

I now finally understands the difference between theory and practice.

theory without practice is not learning at all.

ready

im ready for the next upgrade.

in 1 week i will be new again.

newer, better.

the year so far

in my mind, i had two targets to meet this year.

so far, i haven meet any.

in fact, i've just screwed both up.

looks like i got to turbo charge my engine so that i can accomplish these goals by the end of december.

this is so interesting and exciting.

happened again

Seems like every semester, there will be one exam paper that i will screw up. Its not that I don't know how to do the questions. I have a habit of wanting to solve problems that I cannot solve. Its like a compulsive disorder. This made me very vulnerable in exam situations where you got to move on if you got stuck.

I am always aware of this problem but this time, after today's exam, I had enough.

Gonna kick this son of a bitch habit. NOW.

lazy = death

shit.

i should have done my tuts before going for test 2 last month. the questions are farking exactly the same. i wouldnt get such shit marks if i had done my tuts. now that i've done the tuts, im gonna own the exams tomorrow.

bring it on!

HOLY

SHIT.

i freaking swear that i dreamt about england vs usa 1:1 draw yesterday night.

i hope i get more of these dreams before the match starts....ahahaha.

same...

same dream...again...

tch316

i keep having this dream for the past 2 days. the things that happen in this dream are not anything out of the ordinary. its just a dream about something normal. but the difference between this dream and other dreams is that it is so compelling and so real i can feel it happening whenever i think about it when i am awake.

will the dream come true?

lost it

seriously...i must learn to control temper.

somebody tried to taunt me today with some stupid remarks. i got pissed off right away and i said something really awful.

Something that i really regretted saying.

control. please.

HAHA

WHAT A BEAUTIFUL SEMESTER.

HAHA.

begin

the end of one journey is just the beginning of another.

don let the end of one journey stop you from going forward in life.

dont let one setback decide your destiny.

look for new opportunities and start a new journey.

CP

im facing a crunch point right now and i feel like i am losing the battle. this semester is shit terrible.

havent had any outstanding marks for any tests yet.


i have to persevere.

to turn the tides i will have to reevaluate my current back-to-the-slacker lifestyle.

i will give myself the rest of the week to adjust back.

i've done it before and succeeded.
i am going to make it happen again, because i enjoy it.

term break

how i wish i never had a mid term break.

when the uni gives you a mid term break, they expect you to study for tests after the "break".

why cant they just call it mid term study week?

this way students like me will not have the wrong thinking that it is a break and become complacent.

1 test, 5 weeks of notes, 12 hours left.

0 lectures covered.
0 tutorials covered.

may the force be with me.

....

lol crazy night.

that wasnt me.

damn it

went into a test unprepared today.

i guess the grief for this small failure will keep me motivated for the rest of this semester.

relieve

if today, you just acted childishly and hurt somebody, I urge you to say sorry to that person right away.

I've got the balls to do it and so do you.

and once again, the books proved to be correct again. i was an idiot for trying to go back to my childish self and demanded a win-lose situation.